Anorexia, What say You?

Good Morning!

Whew...what a busy couple of weeks there! I have been very physically And mentally active lately. With the rain storms i was able to get a lot done around the inside of the house - kind of a Late spring cleaning. LOL Then it's been back to research and getting caught back up on all the happenings on email, fb, twitter etc.

So, Yes, Mentally i have been very active in Those regards; however upon counting last weeks kudos, i see that was the Wrong activities to be carrying on for weeks on end. Meaning i guess i Need to take time out and sit with this ED "person", if You will, and what???? What will happen Then? Will I be told some secret memory hidden away? Some knowlege or enlightenment will told to Me by the anorexic one? What? Why am i pushing desperately forward with all my energy and strength in Every Other area or aspect of My Life and Personality to keep some "conversation" from happening inside MY head?

Kudo count week of September 20-26, 2009 = 16.3 :( Pretty darn sad.

Oh, but I had a good excuse she tells Me which is then rationalized as o.k. (because we all know Any excuse Can be given to Justify Anything.) That excuse does Not mean that the wrong action is magically turned into the right. It is Still Wrong - just with an excuse.

True, with all the nasty around school, i've increased her dosage of Original Limu to keeps the "bugs" off her - it's working wonderfully. I decreased mine mine drastically, even skipping a few days in a row, and my next case comes tomorrow so i quit drinking it to give to my Husband and Daughter (probably about the 24th).
So without my Limu, the anorexia just kinda sneaks up and Jumps all over me. That's the "Excuse" and "I'm stickin' to it." LOL

However, i just counted this week's so far and am VERY Happy to see 11.5 Kudos! Whoo-Hoo!
Still, it's friday- only today & tomorrow to get 20 kudos so i am back where i was. So in Reality that is Not good. Thought i was because i really had to force the protein shake in the morning and a granola bar at lunch down my throat. But that was way better than the week previous when i did not eat until 4pm snack and some dinner.

I seem to have stumbled into a wide, long gully of some sort on this stretch of ED Recovery Road. It looks like there is only 1 way out of this part in The Road and that is to continue forward into the darkned area up ahead just around the corner to see what ED has to say to Me. Only by going inside the dark place will i finally be able to say,
"Anorexia, What say You?"

i'm afraid. i don't know what she'll say...or do to me. she's very strong ya kno.

How long can stand here before the turn, busying myself with tidying the house, caring for my Family and a menagerie of pets easily and happily taking up my time that i am Freely giving them - just to avoid the few agonizing steps to turn the corner and go into that dark spot in The Road? I know that others have went there and came out Better for having the strength and courage to travel such a scary Road. I know in My heart that I Will Be Better for continue-ing on The Road Myself.

Just Don't know if i'm ready to see what ED has to say.

I pray YOU have Blessings of Peace & Health, Enlightenment & Prosperity all Your Days!

Barbara A Thornton
Lady Limu
TLC Consultant
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