Attacks from Within

Good Morning Y'All!

Well, ok... I havn't weighed today. Still feel and look healthy. Had Limu yesturday, and will have my next case tomorrow. We are skipping our dose to give to the puppy w/heartworms.

However, i have been on an anorexic high over the last few days. I've been drinking my juice in the a.m. and in the afternoon -2oz each serving. Other than that, food intake has been limited to only at night for dinner. I have cut out the desserts. In fact night before last i had 2 pieces of frozen pizza. Yesturday afternoon i had a protein shake w/milk. Then skipped dinner and finally broke down and had piece of yellow cake w/chocolate frosting and a slice of blueberry pie with an "ensure look a like" drink that gave me 350 calories.

I finally got my wellbutrin back. I am feeling more positive. I have had the energy to skip my naps for days now. I am getting more "chores" and gardening done.
It is Not the wellbutrin that is the cause of this round of anorexia.

I guess that being in a state of anorexia is quite comforting. Crazy huh? It's not that i sit around thinking and telling myself Not to eat. It's not that way. In fact it is just a normal physical state of being for Me.

It's like my cigarette habit. I want to quit. I have quit in the past. But here i sit with a lit one in my hand. Still puffing on it because that is all my body has ever known since the 5th grade. That is 11 years old. I'm 36 now.

That is how long i have trained this body to go without food without even a thought anymore. Physically and mentally training my body to reject food. My earliest memory of my telling myself "just don't eat" was when i was 10.

For over a quarter of a century i have starved myself and taught my mind that Not eating = feelings of contentment, self-worth, empowerment, determination, pride, and the list goes on. All of these things are very good attributes to have, but when the only time you feel these all at once and "feel" like a 'normal' person is when your body is starving and feeding off itself just to stay alive - That is Not the proper way to go about it!

So, i smoke another cigarette, let the hunger subside long enough for me to engage myself in an activity that takes my mind and body away from food.

Praise God! He gave me the Blessing of Limu! As i am mentally actively trying to destroy my physical vessel, God granted me Grace so that I can fight back against these attacks from within.
I've got a lot of time to get back. A quarter of a century! I have already regained 1 year because of Original Limu. I look forward to the rest of my life (for once in my life) because i am Drinkin' The Juice. :)

Every year i am on Limu, i am making my own body stronger so that it can run at optimum strength. Thereby, regaining all those years of physical damage, preventing myself from further damaging this body, creating the next 30 years to be the Healthiest of my life.

Won't you come join me in accepting this Blessing from Above?

Blessings of Peace & Health, Prosperity & Enlightenment!

Barbara A Thornton
LadyLimu
TLC Consultant ID 8536438
http://thelimucompany.com/ladylimu

Have A Great Day!!!

:D

American Gypsy Rocks!

Hey Y'all!

I must tell you about an amazing woman and band called American Gypsy. While i've been going through the battle this past week and a half (i'm @ 119 today:) i have had her plugged into my cd.
I first found her last year while surfing the 'net for Minnesota artists and came across her site - www.AmericanGypsy.com - and just fell in love with her music, message and voice; i could really get into her array of melodies.
So i went to her website the other week and bought her "Safe Place" & "Let me be... free" cd's. All for only $21! I was even more shocked when it came in the mail in only a couple of days!
All the songs are her originals. They take my on a wonderful rollercoaster of emotions which leaves me feeling cleansed and energized to get through my day. Her words and voice speak into my heart and soul bringing joy, peace and love. Her music speaks to my body as i am filled with dancing and swaying to her instruments.
I have added American Gypsy into my daily routine for my recovery. Original Limu is working on my physical body. I find that American Gypsy adds hope, inspiration, energy and peace into my mind and soul.
I am Happily Addicted to my daily dose of American Gypsy to get my brain revved up just as i am Greatfully Addicted to my daily 2oz/2x day of Original Limu.
Why not be addicted to something that is Actually good for the body, mind and spirit?
Feed the body, the brain will follow. Feed the brain and the Spirit will follow.
American Gypsy and Original Limu - my defenses against Anorexia and the attacks of my own brain on me.
Soon....I will be Completely Healed and whole!

I Thank God for bringing American Gypsy into my life just as He did Original Limu.
Both are saving me from myself.

Get Your American Gypsy at:
www.AmericanGypsy.com

Blessings of Peace & Health, Hope & Enlightenment!
Barbara A Thornton- Lady Limu

Cymbalta's Anorexic Side Effect

Good Maorning America and Friends around the Globe!

I did not weigh today, as yesturday i was down 2 pounds to 117. I just did not want to deal with todays weight as i know i lost another pound.
Yesturday, after leaving you, i had a cup of tapioca pudding and a small granola bar. I tried to nap, but to no avail. I just could not fall asleep and everytime i did i was awakened. So i gave that up.
Then i took my Cymbalta. Seeings how i had some extra time on my hands, i decided to be pro-active about My own health and Not take a stranger's (the shrink) word.
Unfortunately i had already taken the stupid pill. Thank Goodness i have only had 8 pills and more Original Limu by Saturday to finish flushing this junk out of my system.
So here's the story: So i meet with this "certified" "medical" shrink for the 1st time ever. I tell her that i am in various counseling and in Church so i have plenty support groups. My biggest problem, i told her, was my anorexia. Without Limu, i really do not eat much. "I was 96 pounds last year" "whatever you put me on CANNOT decrease my appetite one-i-ota. I won't survive it". She gives me 3 weeks worth of samples for Cymbalta based on my previous rounds with medication. Tells me that the are only 30mg and to come back in 6 weeks to see her again when she will more than likely increase it to 60mg based on my "state of mind' at this meeting.
The Nurse brings the samples. On my way out, the nurse weighs me and checks my blood pressure. I ask HER if this Cymbalta will decrease my appetite. She says it should not. That she's never seen that happen. Again i am Very Expressive of the fact of my Anorexia. No problems is what she expressed to me.
Well, this past week has been horrendous if you read my entry yesturday, you will see a complete state of Anorexia. Even though I - ME - wanted to eat, the anorexic inside me would not allow me to. After a few days, i became the classic "lack of hunger" that is the meaning of Anorexia. Irritable and 'w'ithchy around my family. My anger level quickly rose to a point that i have not been for years.
So, i open the sample box and get out the long thin paper that is written in ALL Fine Print.
The 1st thing i lookes at was the charts showing the studies of Cymbalta vs Placebo. Both charts showed a MARKED Decrease in appetite with Cymbalta and an irrifutible Large coincidence of Anorexia with Cymbalta vs placebo. In fact, the placebo barely regestered Anorexia, while Cymbalta showed Anorexia as an Actual side effect!!
This paper plainly states:

"In placebo-controlledclinical trials, MDD and GAD patients treated with Cymbalta for up to 10-weeks experienced a mean weight loss of approximately 0.5kg, compared with a mean weight gain of approximately 0.2kg in placebo-treated patients. In DPN placebo-controlled clinical trials, patients treated with Cymbalta for up to 13 weeks experienced a mean weight loss of approximately 1.1kg, compared to a mean weight gain of approximately 0.2 kg in placebo-treated patients."

I have no idea what the difference between a kilogram and a pound. However, all i need to know is that Cymbalta causes weight loss, loss of appetite and Anorexia.
See, this is what i mean about You being pro-active in Your own Life and with Your own Health. This woman is a Medical Doctor. She went to college and got her degree. Yet, she still could not read the fine print to actually see for herself what she was giving me. She heard somewhere i am sure that Cymbalta is the "New Wonder Drug" for depression. So her degree tells her that is all she needs to know and goes around writing prescriptions because of the kick backs that the pharmecutical company gives her. She obviously is Not concerned with Me, my health, or my future. She just wants to pass off drugs to unwitting patients that are trusting her and putting their lives in her hands. That is what i did. I blindly Trusted that because she has a degree in her office, then she would know better than i how to help Myself. If i were to stay on Cymbalta for the 6 weeks at a wight loss of 1 pound a day, i would lose 42 pounds! That would put me at 75 pounds! Ok, lets give them the benefit of the doubt and only lose 21 pounds in that time (half a pound a day) i would be back where i started 1 year ago at 96 pounds! Shoot, i'd be on my way to Dead if i kept taking that drug.
Shame on me. Shame on You too if you are just putting stuff into your system blindly without researching the facts and side effects. That is exactly what i did before signing up for membership benefits with The Limu Company. I spent literally hours and days online researching this nutrient called Fucoidan. I was going to make absolutely sure that if i were to take a liquid suppliment, that it had to be the right One. I compared Original Limu with Noni, Monavee, Limu Plus; also comparing the effacy of pill and powder forms of nutrition suppliments. I found hands down that Original Limu offered a FAR Superior product. So i joined for the savings of it.
Now i blindly go in and take some dugs that some drug pusher (the medical community coupled with the pharmecutical industry) gave me. I might as well have gone to shady side of town, in some run down shack and got some drugs from that dealer to make me feel better. What is the difference between them and the suit and office and receptionist to make my appointments? None in my book. Both are just out to make their money selling their kind of drugs. Prescription or illegal - it's all drugs.
I knew Original Limu had saved my life. Still is. I guess until this incident, i really didn't fully appreciate the All Natural ingredients & Fucoidan that Original Limu offers me.
Even without medication and "just juice" my mind was healthier and active in a positive and constructive way. Original Limu actually HELPED me to eat. With Limu i Can eat. Without, i cannot.
I really believe and am living my idealogy: Feed The Body, The Mind and Spirit will Follow! It is happening to me. Praise God!
I will go to my medical Dr, who i can have constant medical attention, and find some other 'drug' to help me get through this wall. My brain is lacking the chemicals to function properly. I feel only because i've been anorexic for over 25 years. Feed the body, the brain will follow. Right now i just need the right kind of brain chemical boost until i can train my brain, and feed my brain back into functioning properly - just like my bowels and periods.

I want to send a special Hello and prayers of Strength and Peace to Elora, TN. I invite you to comment on anything you have read in my blog. You can go to www.DiscoverLimu.com/LadyLimu and sign my guest book if you would like me to contact you.

Anorexia is a Silent and Deadly Disease.
Silent because nobody talks about it in the open. Silent because it is all in our Head. Silent because we keep to ourselves to keep away all the questions and concerns of our family and loved ones about our weight or lack of portions on our plate.
Deadly because if you don't eat - You Will Die. That is the way God set up our bodies. This physical being needs food.
I use Original Limu as a cruth sometimes. Just drinkin' the juice and not eating. I do Not recommend that. Original Limu is a suppliment. By the very term suppliment it referrs to supplimenting your food intake. When i drink my juice, i am also eating. Please do not misunderstand this point. Original Limu has sustained my life, it has fed my body, it has made me physically healthier than i ever have been in my entire life. I also eat Food. I have a hard time mentally with food, byt Original Limu makes the Physical act of eating much easier.

I want to swing the door wide open and let the sun shine in on this silent disease! By keeping this disease silent, we are perpetuating this Anorexia to snowball into an uncontrollable epidemic - not only in the U.S. but also all over the globe.
By the simple act of me not keeping silent over this disease in my life, i am forcing the evil one out of my life. Silence keeps us locked up in shame and guilt. It keeps us from our family and friends. Silence has kept me from God and His healing grace in my life. Not any more. I am exposing the Lies of satan in my life and hopefully exposing his lies in yours as well.

There is Real Hope and Health out there for us Anorexans!
Anorexia is a Completely Treatable disease! IF caught early enough - meaning before you DIE. Original Limu can and will give your body the nutrition it need so that your mind and spirit can work together to reverse this dysfunctional thinking.

Please join me here by shedding light on Anorexia. Please leave your comments or questions about Your own battle or that of a loved one's

Just like years ago Cancer and Fibromayalgia, acid reflux disease, arthritis were all unknown before people started bring their symptoms and struggles into the light so they could find support, advise, help and healing.
Now Anorexia needs to be HEARD. It needs to be Understood. It needs to be Treated.

Let's stand together in the light fellow Anorexans! Together we Can change the Future of this disease, it's treatment, and share in the wonderful Blessing from God above that is found only in Origianl limu.
Together we can affect our Children and Grandchildren's future health for the Better!

Blessings of Peace & Health, Prosperity & Enlightenment!

Barbara A Thornton - Lady Limu

I Hate Anorexia!

Good Morning Friends and Neighbors!
Today i would like to send a special Hello to some of my visitors:
In Uusikaupunki, Finland (My Maternal Gram's home Country) A Very Special welcome!
Also Welcome: Berlin, Germany (A country and language i love, and visited), London, England.
Welcome to my Fellow citizens of The United States:
Chicago, Illinois; Saginaw, Michigan; Youngstown, Ohio and in my home state, Elora, Tennessee.
Thank You all for visiting! Come by for a 'sit-a-spell' anytime! I welcome your comments and Thank You for Your prayers!
I guess i have been on a bad spiral for the last month or so.
I am down to 116 now. Had my last shot of Original Limu 2 days ago. More on the way at the end of the week. My bowels however have been functioning completely normal everyday now for over a week. I have a hard time keeping track of the exact days, as i am just so happy it is all normal.
As far as the anorexia goes: i don't know what the problem is. It seems like the sunlight is a trigger for me Not to eat. I find it very difficult to eat during the day. I am hungry. I just don't eat. I can feel my stomach is empty, but yet i still don't eat.
It is true that i have had a bunch of stressors in this last month, i realize that stress is a major trigger of mine. Since childhood, i have used the coping mechanism of refraining from food as a way to gain control in my life and as a way of punishment-reward system.
Now that i am grown, looking back, finding the root cause of this thing called Anorexia, and have a sheer determination to overcome this disease; it seems like the act of Anorexia is just as much a part of me (if not more in control) than the sane, logical and very escence of ME.
It is like the Real Me is being held captive by this Anorexic Personality if you will. I know what i Want to do - EAT - but the part controlling my hand to reach out and grab some food and put it into my mouth has More control over this body than MY thoughts and wills.
This personality blocks out all thought of food. When i even start to think
that i am hungry, or when my Body screams that i am hungry, this Anorexic Person silences all the thoughts and bodily cues.
After at least 25 years of this behavior, and the deafening silence going on in my head, something finally snapped. Myself.
Lately, for the past week and a half, i have been relegated to just dinner and hopefully dessert. I am sitting here now, with only a 2 bread, thin sliced turkey, 1 slice American cheese, mayo both sides, 2 slices tomato sandwich and a handfull of chips and 2 olives for dinner last night, then 2 granola bars for dessert yesturday.
My stomach has shrunk - i know, i feel the difference. I am physically sluggish. Suprizingly i insanely feel empowered.
Even though i have not been eating - literally, my brain has stayed active and focused. Yes, i'm on the meds, but more importantly - i'm on Original Limu.
When my body and brain feel like this due to... well, starvation, the emotions that i feel subconsiously (for lack of better word or term to express what is not consious) is a sense of exhilaration (sp?). I feel happy that i have not put anything in my mouth. I feel like i am in control - no matter what is happening around me to stress me out. I actually 'feel' like i have more energy because i am in control and have not allowed myself to eat anything. My brain seems to be very active. Yes, it is completely black in there consciously, but i 'feel' like it is active.
All of this however IS all in My mind.
My body is going into shut down mode. I am Not energetic. I am physically lethargic. It is all i can do to sit here and get through this - for Myself and for You or Your Loved One - i am very physically tired, just to keep typing feels like a job comparable to building houses. My brain is on auto pilot as i am letting the wods just flow - there is not enough energy to think about these things before they come out. After all my years and experience with writing, i can trust myself to say the Real truth about what is going on Inside ME, so i don't worry.
The only 2 permeating thoughts that are getting through are
#1: Food. Need to eat. What to eat? (trying hard to picture something - nothing comes to mind) Oh well. I'm on a roll and i want to get this stuff out so that i can continue to heal from this disease called Anorexia. I'm not hungry anyway. Besides there is nothing to eat. There is nothing i want. (in a whole grocery store, there would be nothing i want LOL) GONE. POOF. No more thought of food and hunger.
#2: Nap. When i finish what I have to tell myself, then i can lie down for a nap and recooperate from this strenous work - both physical and mental. Poof. Gone. No more thought of sleep.
My stomach is screaming. My eyes and brain are tired. My hands are heavy. My brain is fading to black.
I HATE ANOREXIA!!!!!!!!!!!

More Original Limu soon Doll! Keep Feeding the Body and the Mind WILL Follow!!

Blessings of Peace & Health, Hope & Enlightenment!

Barbara A Thornton - Lady Limu

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