2011 In Review

  Wow, it has been a long time since i've visisted here. I guess i have have been so busy being busy.... that the time just slipped away. But that ol' familiar twinge has been setting in; the one that is just beyond reach and can only be accessed through pen and paper. I'm happy to upgrade to a keyboard though as it makes the words come faster and editing a breze!

  So, How You been, What have you been up to? I long to hear your reverie.

  As for me, shortly after I left here, i went off the LEAN Meal Replacement Shakes however keeping the LIMU juice for My self and Family and of course Bean. By the way is doing just fine! His heart worms have been eliminated from his system and he is happy as a lark. We still drain the excess fluid from his abdomen every 2 weeks. Currently we have him on Lasix - a water pill or diuretic i think. Anyways it is supposed to help keep the fluid from building up so fast. The fluid retention is caused by heart or kidney failure and this drug Doc said is given to heart failure patients.

 There I go again, off on a busy tangent.

 There is just so much... the I's and me's are competing.

 Such is life with AN (Anorexia Nervosa). Always distracting you from what is really happening.

 Then the unseen paranoia.

  Anyways, just a glimpse there.

  The Holidays are always the worst for me. It starts with Haloween and doesn't end until near St. Patrick' Day. 

  I enjoy creating and maintaing our own website - Healthy Food and Supplements for Survival or (LadyLimu.com) for short. This is where i've been busy at work. It has allowed me to have a stable place of residence (if You will) where we can be in control of our visions for the future of our Families and businesses. A place where we can bring our talents together and happy to help other people Hope for the Best and Prepare for the Worse - our motto, creed and way of life.

  It is my passion to bring hope and healing to... well, the world. (Aquarious and AN all or nothing mentality) 

  Wayne's passion comes through Functional art and knifesmithing.

  So, I'm doing good and moving forward with our dreams. 

  I think the scale would say otherwise; i thought about getting on this morning but passed off the thought to go to work. Wayne has told me in the past week that he has noticed I don't eat as much and look like I'm losing weight.

  But, oh how easy it is to stay busy moving forward and trying Not to let the increasing paranoia and anxiety set in. There is so much to do that I had not realized that goes into a website. It has kept me quite busy just to stay on top of things and with dial-up speed, i simply don't Feel like I have enough hours in the day to "waste" My time eating and resting. (says the Unspoken AN Voice as it propels mySelf another endless hour).

    Halloween wasn't so bad. My daughter and i worked at the Fall Festival at our church and i had a Blast. Being around all the children and their parents allowed me to be free. Laughter, hugs and candy were flowing and what could be any better?

  Oh, see... tried to put this out of my mind - Dad's MDS. I've been real worried about this. Thankfully, Mom keeps him on high doses of LIMU ORIGINAL juice daily when he is with her. (Doc's won't let him have it) It took Mom just 3 Days on the juice to bring his white blood cell count to Double what it was after 80 day in the hospital after chemo treatment! Within 7 he was holding almost 3.0! Now he is currently cancer free and will be going in for a cord blood transplant the first of the New Year. 

  Yes, my Daddy weighs heavily on my mind. Can't think about the bad, must focus on what i know. The Nutrients in this juice IS working and My Dad is the healthiest MDS cancer patient to be at this stage of the game.

  Thanksgiving came and went with plenty of food on the plate with the Family. I loaded the plate and seconds came happily. I enjoyed the tremendous amount of food and welcomed all the flavors. By now i think I didn't eat so much. I remember that i didn't eat many leftovers, mostly just the sweet potatoes. 

  In true AN fashion and form, it was around this time that I was forced to go within. Too many variables going on from all different sides that made my mind want to run and hide. Without the Nutrients and Protein from my shakes, the AN was ready to once again take shape. 

  

  An uncontrollable fear took hold that if I ever told what was happening in my life, it would cause others' strife. It's the Last thing an Anorexic wants to do - the Person would do anything to keep from hurting You. 

  The Confusion and Doubt must always stay within. It must never enter into the Friend or Family space. For these feelings are too hard to embrace so keep them to the self and Never let the secrets you know out. Too many people will be hurt once they know and loyaly is worth it's weight in gold.

  So says that AN Voice now that it speaks!! 

  Is that what this horrid Feeling has been all about?

  Then it occured to me that it has been too long since i've been allowed to speak.

  Is it paranoia or is it forsight that has been gripping me? Is it the AN who refuses to die or is it really I that sometimes Does see?

  Christmas was both a Blessing and a (commercial) curse. Both sides of me were distinctly parted equally between complete joy and despair. My Daughter was home for school break which doesn't always happen year to year. I could not have asked for a better gift than to have my children present. 

  Oh how i loved waking Christmas morn' with her and church together! Where celebrating the birth of Jesus and worshiping Him for all He has done for salvation, grace and merciful health to everyone flowed freely under the bright sun.

  When time came to come home, My reaction was stark faced with knowing there were no presents to go under the non-existent tree. This Christmas for us like many around was extremely bleak. With only $280 a week coming in from all sources, we were happy to have the necessities of a home, lights and heat. But it doesn't leave anything for a Christmas treat.

  That's ok I say because I'm working hard everyday.

  Pretty soon, I'm getting calls and emails asking what this LIMU is all about. It's My Passion, it's my life. There's No Better Way to Be than when LIMU is put to Your body's test. It works every time to give a body what it needs.

  Looks like I am finally fulfilling what was set before me. Get the information of what I have to offer like so many other LIMU Members are doing. I'm being true to myself, The Company and others by being honest and sincere with what I know. 

  The wrongs of the past forgiven, although hard forgotten I am renewed with Joy unspeakable at being able to help the first one then two, three and on to the four. 

    I now study website design and optimization in addition to a relentless need to understand more of the nutrients of seaweed and how Fucoidan affects the body so well.        

  It was today that i felt so strong about getting back 2B RecoverED and me. 

  Too much time has passed since I allowed me to breathe. What is bottled inside I do not know, but seeing ribs in the mirror is a sure sign that all is Not good to go.

  My Experience started with the hope I received when I heard about my Uncle Terry's Throat Cancer and LIMU Experience was killing the tumor. The chemo and radiation was Not affecting him at all, his body was able to not only survive but thrive during all this Simply Because he was getting These Nutrients in a bottle. 

  This is where i have been all year. Immersed in doing what I believe is beneficial to others (and our Family and Friends) - bringing Good News of peace and health with joy and prosperity to You. With Healthy Food and Supplements for Survival featuring The Limu Company Products and Prosperity Plan. When one is Prepared for Future Disaster, there IS Hope. With a Healthy Body, anything is possible.

   This is why i have not been back. The reason why i fell silent. The very aspect AN has used against me these past months. It knows that i cannot live without My LIMU. Anorexia Nervosa can Not survive With Nutrients - with This Liquid Diet.

  What is AN's biggest tool? 

  Guilt.

  If AN can evoke feelings of guilt, it will win every time. 

  How does AN make a person feel guilty?

By making the Person keep secrets.

  Does it matter what the secrets are?

no.

the more the better.

the more people the secret will hurt, the better and more useful it is.

    I Am Barbara A. Thornton a.k.a. Lady Limu, because I have witnessed the healing properties that The Limu Company LLC products have to offer. I have endeavored to put my body and mind through the most grueling places of starvation and recovery.

   How do you...

  How do You stop the Anorexia?

Break the SILENCE!

   I can Not give in to this fight. I can Not be SILENT and give in. For these very products I completely believe in. So much so that the juice is the only thing standing between that retched AN and ME.

  I'm happy to help You Dare 2B RecoverED from whatever health issue You may have. I've taken this body from the most extreme starvation state of being to a perfectly healthy body. I've lived through the Re-feeding Syndrome a couple of times using only The LIMU Brand of nutrition liquid diet supplements.

  I enjoy taking Your calls and emails and always have time to Sponsor You.

   On to 2012 i bid you adieu until then, to reconnect with my Self, My Family and my Friends. As I enjoy my sips of that golden nectar and allow relief with connection to all the other aspects of Me.       

  I hope You have a Safe and Happy New Year filled with The Blessing of peace and joy, health and prosperity always! 

I'm Barbara A Thornton, 2B RecoverED because I Am LIMU Member 8536438 

 I'm happy to take Your call directly at 931.628.4355 or Email me at BarbaraThornton@LadyLimu.com 

It is our pleasure to help You! 
Hope for the Best and Prepare for the Worst with Healthy Food and Supplements for Survival.

  

  

  

  

      

Start A New Kudo Chart

Time to get out those bright colored construction papers and
the stack of address labels that have been piling up to start another round of
Kudo charts.

I have allowed myself once again to use this Deadly Diet as a means to an end.
The end being a fully functioning, income generating website that I have complete control over -
for better or worse - it is what i make of it, the effort I put in and
the grace of God that will propel it from here on out.

Seems rather a strange predicament to find one's Self in isn't it?
To actually Need a tangible, visual reminder of the food eaten in a day.
I, myself have to laugh snidely at times because i have simply "forgotten to eat".

Oh, I've been doing my LIMU shots, however they too have come begrudgingly.
"Just so much to do." The Voice urges silently.
" Gotta fix That now..." she says before scurrying around the keyboard.
"There simply is No time to stop." AN declares somewhere deep inside and
i am forced into remission as I am tuned to her Voice and must abide.

So, i think it wise to fall back on the teaching's of youth, in this case -
A Kudo Chart full of fun and smiles to Celebrate a Big Job Well Done!
and give the Real (pre-anorexic) me as sense of belonging again within Myself.

The Really Funny part? i Love Food!
Ask anyone who knew me when I was young or on a "good" day.

Anyways, lesson learned...again.

Be aware of the Eating Disorders Warning Signs so that Your Family can get help
before this mental and physical disease has a chance to fester.

Next year I will be turning 40 and i do Not wish this on My worst enemy.
With Anorexia Nervosa having the highest number of deaths of any mental illness, it is imperative that we, Parents need to nurture this basic survival instinct early and often.

Time to get Me a Kudo.
Have a Great Day filled with blessings of joy and peace with health and prosperity always!
Barb

The Labyrinth

What a whirlwind this past few weeks traveling to and fro across parts of this great land. I got to catch up with some old friends and meet new ones, our family grew thanks to the Bride & Groom. Now I am back home and after a few days of complete rest I find myself beginning to appear again.
My state is comfortable and the anxiety of the outside is beginning to ebb away. I have kept my weight steady & strong not dipping down below my set 115 so that's a good thing. My body is is on the right track, no need to to ever go back to the emaciated way I choose to stay for all those decades.
Now that I am in a stable place with myself, it is time to reflect and then grow from within. This is not an easy task given the miriad personalities that seem to reside within, each with an agenda for this body of mine to take. Integrate is the word and deed but for all to actually agree is what holds me back from being completely Me.

I am coming to realize & understand that My memories have not dissapeared, neither are they impaired by space & time; they are in the different facets of my mind. Being Anorexic has some degree of Dissociation Personality Disorder in order to continue on in that "other" self. Add this illness on top of physical, verbal & sexual abuse along with neglect since early age and no wonder why I cannot remember. I simply did Not experience those episodes. Someone else inside my Body (or System Parts) did.

This is why tracking down the Voice of AN inside the labyrinth of this mind has been so hard. For years I have somehow made it clear that each one of me is to be Seperate from the Self. Never sharing this body at the same time means also never sharing the mind. The AN has been systematically injecting itself into every person'ality' I have. So that 30 yrs later every one is deluted with the toxic Voice of this deadly reason.

Each time one of my persons gets a leg up on the fight 2BRecoverED, the voice starts attacking another & 'forcing' that personality to overcome the 1st for the position to "run" this body & mind. To fight effectively, I must be introduced to and know each one that resides within my mind.
And I though the Physical Healing of Anorexia was going to be a grueling one. It was, but I survived it and I will Survive this too. Maybe now that all my different system parts are starting to trust Me for nourishment called "food", wether it be LIMU or solids, soon each one will find the strength to open up their world to Mine.

Now that my sandwich has had a bit of time to digest as i came out and wrote some, it it time for a short rest to continue to let my body & mind heal.

Blessings of Peace & Joy with His Mercy & Grace to You alway!

I'm Barb Thornton and IAmLimu
Lady Limu Member ID# 8536438
931.796.3688
888.8My.LIMU
http://thelimucompany.com/ladylimu

The End of The Road

The steps along this path, 2BRecoverED, are mine to take;
Either to move forward or stay knocked down for the AN’s sake.
Once i decided to choose a different way of Life
(Instead of listening to & following The Voice)
I really had no idea that choice of Mine -
Would cause so much strife.

In My body and in my head are feelings & thoughts
Of sheer dread and the anxiety rises into a crescendo.
As both know I will not give in and stop
Drinking My LIMU Brand, for it has all the nutrients I need;
To overcome all that I’ve done wrong since I
Let the AN in all those many years ago.

This path is a treacherous, miry and confusing one -
Just like all the others, I s’pose, that lead to the Land of RecoverED.
Full of deep pits of despair, fits of rage and, quite frankly,
Feelings of not even being here in the same realm
With body & mind complete.

What’s the difference, You might ask, of which path to take
– If they all lead to the same place?
Ah yes, but if You only knew
How much easier this one is with LIMU inside;
To fortify & strengthen the body & mind -
for the fight to bring The Self out.

A daunting & exhaustive task this Refeeding Syndrome with
All its quirky traits, forcing Me to wonder if I should continue.
But each day I start anew with a sip of that golden nectar
As i visualize my AN drowning in that sea of nutrients
And Me without a care.

My steps quickened along with my strength restored,
I soon Shall say good-bye to this old friend of Mine;
Of which I’ve trodden & have become bored.
It’s time to get on with My new living arrangements as I
Take up the Only residence next to my Lord
That Belongs in this vessel that has been given to Me.

May the God of Hope fill You with all Joy & Peace as You Trust in Him. *Romans 15:13

I'm Barbara A Thornton and IAmLIMU ~ Lady Limu

888.8My.LIMU ~ #8536438
931.796.3688
(Sunday, August 22, 2010 17:58)

Dare to BE

Well, I was looking for the information about what constitutes a recovered state from anorexia, but have so many favorites on that subject that I came across those (previously posted) instead.

A RecoverED (female) AN, i read earlier last week, has had at least 6 months in a row of menses and maintain a Body Mass Index or BMI of 17 or 18%. (I forget which.) This was the information I was searching for. My BMI is 19% and risingwith the addition of LEAN.

This is how I know without a doubt that I Am RecoverED with LIMU. All the numbers add up to a very healthy weight & body. The fact that I am maintaining a "normal" body weight and functions shows that I Am ingesting the proper amount of food calories & nutrients.

I am in the "maintaining" stage of recovery ~ that is to say I will still continue to work on the psychological aspects of this illness to get to the point where I am no longer tortured by the Voice that resides in My mind.
The complete physical recovery I received from the LIMU Brand has enabled me to Dare 2BRecoverED ~ in Body, Mind and Spirit.

Feed the Body LIMU and the Mind WILL follow - giving You the strength & energy to climb out of the hollow; that deep pit of blackness & despair that keeps us in SILENCE, unable to declare "I Dare 2BRecoverED and I will Succeed!"
Yes, that Voice inside the mind is tricky and berrades with lies, but once You decide to LIMU everyday the Control is Yours once & for all to Live YOUR Life the way You choose; the Voice simply has no where to hide once Nutritients continue to go inside!

Dare To BE...
Get on the road 2BRecoverED with LIMU today!
It's Affordable, Easy and Works!
Start Living YOUR Life!

Blessings of Peace & Health, Enlightenment & Prosperity to You!

I'm Barbara A Thornton and IAmLIMU ~ Lady Limu

RecoverED with LIMU

I am RecoverED with LIMU!

I always knew this day would come, I just had no clue when. I could see that Beautiful Land from this path 2BRecoverED. It could be seen from the top of every mountain I climed, it was "hiding" just around each turn on this miry path as it beckoned to me to keep forging through the muck & slippery pot holes along the way. The beacon of that great city always burned bright to light the way as if begging me to stay on track and not fall off into that black pit of dispair.

Sure, i fell in more times than I wanted. Sure this has been the Hardest path I have ever had to take in My Life. Sure at times I thought this path would surely kill me if I kept moving forward.
But You know what? I Survived and am Thriving!

I am No longer a slave to AN and it's incessant desire to keep Me malnourished!
I am Healthier than I ever have been!
I feel...well...ALIVE for the 1st time in Decades!

It took me a little over 3 years to finish this path 2BRecoverED from Anorexia with LIMU.

The 1st 3 yrs, I treated My condition with LIMU Original.
The last 4+ months I have added the LEAN meal shake to My treatment plan and that has made all the difference!

Working in tandem, the LIMU Brand is designed to provide the Human Body with ALL the building blocks to not only Survive but to THRIVE; allowing Me the Energy & Mental clarity to Strive for My Goals & Dreams to come true.

I have No doubt that if LEAN were available to me earlier, I would have finished sooner. The LIMU Brand just made the path 2BRecoverED into a superhighway! Cutting the ED Recovery time in 1/2 by Equipping & Fortifying the Body with whole food nutrients without the use of drugs, chemicals or complications due to digesting solid foods.

I realize that just because i finished the path and now Live in The Beautiful Land of RecoverED, I still have a lot of work to do. Much IS done, but plenty to get in order. There is setting up a homestead ~ both here in a new & scary land i have never seen as well as inside this new vessel that I find myself in. This requires planning, dedication and fortification plus leaving room for unexpected setbacks so that My new Home can recover quickly to get back on track in a jiffy.

The 'hard' work is behind Me ~ i have successfully brought My Body to a place of Optimal Health - THE Absolute FIRST STEP in recovering from an Eating Disorder. Without a Healthy Body, the Mind canNot Fight & Win the Voice from Within.

Thank You ALL who have Encouraged Me & Supported me through the journey 2BRecoverED!
Your kind words gave me the Protection & Strength to Dare To Be...Me!
Your prayers provided the Hope & Joy restored daily even through the darkest ones!
Your love has given Me Enlightenment & Prosperity!

May the Lord Bless You with His Mercy & Grace for all the times You put a smile on My face!

I'm Barbara A Thornton and I Am LIMU ~ Lady Limu

Member ID ~ 8536438

Transcript of My 2BRecoverED with LIMU call

Tuesday, September 21, 2010 in case You do not have access to the online office:

Thank You all for Your time tonight. Hope you don’t mind but it’s easier if I just read my notes.

I started this path 2BRecoverED from Restrictive type Anorexia with LIMU a little over 3 years ago when all they had was the Original juice.

I was underweight as far back as I can remember. In the 4th grade the teacher used Me as the model of a skeleton because all my bones protruded from my skin. In fact, that year I weighed between 40-49 pounds and so was this 10 pound a year pattern until the 10th grade when I finally got up to 102; then stopped gaining.

My 1st pregnancy I was able to gain 10 pounds to 112 and My 2nd I gained 22. Both babies were 7lbs 15oz and 21 ½ “long. 4 weeks after giving birth both times I was back to my “normal” 102 size.

By May of 2007 I was eating about ¼ cup of Hamburger Helper at dinner with the Family and hardly drinking anything at all. This is when I stepped on the scale for the 1st time since I could remember & was shocked that my weight was 96 lbs at the age of 35. I had to finally admit to Myself & Family that I had a problem eating food – I was Anorexic.

This is where the path started for Me and within just a week or so I received a call from My Aunt Jane LaLonde about Uncle Terry’s throat cancer. Diagnosed stage 4 and told to get his affairs in order right before the Dr. went on vacation.
She had dabbled in LIMU but with this news she went all in and started him on a regimen of 12oz Original daily. From mid-December to mid-February all he had for any sort of treatment was LIMU and the pictures sold me right away; within that time, his tumor visibly shrunk in ½ and all the redness & swelling gone.
Another 4 months with chemo & radiation with LIMU and he is cancer free to this day – over 3 years now.

I figured if this juice could shrink a tumor, it might just help me 2BRecoverED as well as My Family.
We were making just $460 a month at the time and I made the biggest leap of Faith in my life and made the call. Back then we had to pay $25 membership fee in order to get on Autoship.

What happened next was simply amazing! The case arrived in the late afternoon. I gave my children the recommended 2oz, but Wayne & I took 4. Then before bedtime we took another 4. The next day we did the same and the 3rd we cut back to 2.
We figured it was just food & he with a bent frame due to Osteoarthritis and a nasty cold and me starving to death – literally we had faith that it would Not hurt.

On the 4th day he woke to find himself standing straight up for the 1st time in many years. As for Me, I actually ate a bowl of cereal.

You see, Anorexia is a Mind and Body “illness” and can be manifested by one or the other to begin with and then overlaps both. So when I say I could Not eat, it means that whenever I put food in my mouth it was like chewing rocks – even pudding, then to get the rocks past the throat was near impossible and if by chance some made it to My stomach it sat like well…rocks.

In My case, anorexia started in my brain at a very young age. By the time I was 35 it was all I knew how to do and I did it very well.
Anorexia in my opinion is the polar opposite of Obesity. One clings to food to cover their emotions or help them feel safe in times of stress. The other completely avoids food all together.

Anyways, I stayed on the Original every month - only the Lord knows how we could afford it for the 1st 3 years, but we made it happen and gradually I regained My strength and ability to eat solid food. I also had some ups & downs as I fought the enemy that I had created inside of My mind. My highest weight was 120 which didn’t last long before pressure & stress came along and restriction once again ruled my life. I never stopped the juice but continued to forge on.

Then this year The Company came out with LEAN and I couldn’t have been more thrilled! Finally! A Full Meal in liquid form from a company that I Trust & have come to depend on.
I’ve been told all my life that I walk to the beat of a different drum and so I took a product designed with weight Loss in mind and turned it upside down to fit My needs.

By the time Lean arrived at My door, I was under another attack from within & restriction brought me back down to 102.
At 1st I could only tolerate 1 scoop at a time as I started the Last Re-Feeding Syndrome I’ll ever have to go through for the rest of My Life. They weren’t wrong about all the energy it would take to relearn how to digest food, or the severity of side-effects caused by the Syndrome, ranging from confusion, dizzy, coma and even death. Sure am glad I had My LIMU to help Me through I’ll tell Ya that!

Soon enough I was up to the full 2 scoops in addition to real solid food & the juice.

I took the LEAN Summer Challenge more for Me than anything else & was elated to find just days before the end, my Dr. came and said “You are cancer free & 117 pounds.”
I had been previously diagnosed and treated for cervical cancer and this visit was my 1 year check-up to make sure they got it all. Of course after seeing Uncle Terry’s pictures I was never worried about cancer, My biggest problem was the Anorexia.

I guess that was a shock to me on the inside and so I lost 2 pounds, but have successfully stayed 115 for I’m not sure how long now. That’s the most I’ve ever weighed in My Life without pregnancy.

LIMU LEAN is a Weight Management System that works on Both ends of the spectrum of Eating Disorders. The 6 different kinds of protein in 1 shake gives me more protein than I would “normally” have in a month, plus all the Nutrients one could ask for in a meal including that extra shot of Original mixed right in.


Oh! I almost forgot. My nails & hair are longer & stronger than they have ever been. Not real amazing in itself, but consider the fact that I have struggled hard most of my life with restriction, this is darn near an impossible feat due to the fact that I have not been ingesting enough solid food to provide My Body with an overabundance of Nutrients to be able to just grow & throw them away like that.
Also I finally grew out of my 13 year old daughter’s pants. Before LIMU I wore size 10-12 Girls’ clothes and today I can fit nicely into Women’s size 5-6.

I started this journey for MySelf & My Family but it has become my mission to help educate and reciprocate The Blessing of LIMU to all who are suffering malnutrition.

My journey 2BRecoverED with LIMU is just about finished, but that’s not where My story ends. It is only the beginning of a Life RecoverED with LIMU.

Well, that’s my story and I’m sticking to it. :D

With LIMU it’s so easy to get healthy – even this Anorexic can Do It!

I pray the God of Hope will fill You All with Joy & Peace as You Trust in Him.

I’m Barbara A Thornton and I am LIMU - Lady Limu.

Then vs Now

I sure am Happy to be back on my LIMU Brand LEAN shakes! I had mixed up my days last week & put the call in just 1 day late for a Friday delivery & UPS does not ship here on Saturday, then Monday was the Labor day holiday.
"You don't know what You got until it is gone" is definately a True statement.

I was however conscious of the "feeding times" & length in between. I think i did pretty good in the solids department as I did not lose any weight. Still a healthy 115. Yay!

So i was thinking & talked to My Family about this the other day:
I started at 96 pounds a little over 3 years ago.
I am 115 now.
That is a 19 pound gain over that length of time.
That must be a Healthy weight gain, I conjectured aloud.
"You know Mom," my Daughter says, "When people Diet they are supposed to lose Only about 1.5 to 2 pounds at max per week. So, you're probably right."

Now I know that is "mearly" 5 pounds a year of Sustained Increase to a Healthy Weight with the LIMU Brand, Premier Fucoidan Blend liquid dietary support system.
But 1st we must Realize or Detect a "problem" where Health is concerned and then to understand the background of the "illness" as well as the person with the affliction; to see what, how & why This particular scenario is significant with it's subtle life changing effect.

When My Son was born, I weighed 112 - up 19 full pounds by the day of delivery. With My Daughter 3 years later, I was able to get to 124 - a full 22 pounds. Both babies: 7lbs 15oz, 21 & 1/2 inches long.
So we can see how this traveled along with me well into my 30's when i finally Realized & Admitted I had a problem & it's name is Anorexia who always acompanies The Voice.

Then 'The Blessing' of LIMU came into our home and the Only thing we had to do to attain it was simply sign up on Autoship for 1 case a month and pay a $25 Member fee (back then it was like that, now it's Free).
That was all we had to Do. Just make the call. Get started the next week.
"i've been without Nutrients this long, what is a little longer?" I heard the Voice say.

That 1st case arrived and for 2 years we drank only LIMU Original juice. That "problem" I spoke of earlier? Yeah...well we, meaning: me on the Inside, AN, that Voice and Me on the outside, battling to be "King of the Mountain" except the "Mountain" was Me. My Body. My Mind. My Spirit. My Life.

How completely Awasome is that? The LIMU Brand comes out with LEAN! Drinking 'just' 2 shakes a day is now feeding My Whole Self 70% of the RDA for virtually Every Nutrient: vitamins, minerals, polyphenols, the Most Omega's one can get and the list goes on....

So for months now i've been able to ingest Not Only the fucoidan & 70+ Nutrients in 1 oz but I have been blessed to receive the LEAN to add extra LIMU in My day on top of the 6 different kinds of protein and carbohydrates! That is a dream come true!

Let's see, 15 pounds over 3 years is a decent gain considering i was emaciated & nutrient deplete most of my life. Now My muscles are growing along with Much Needed (visceral) fat to protect My Body & My Mind as well as giving Me a sense of Peace with every LIMU product ingested throughout the day ~ a sense that I am doing just fine, My family & Me are all healthier than could ever be as long as we continue to step out on Faith and keep receiving that blessing of Health.

Now that I have been going through...what? A 2nd puberty? Of sorts maybe as My Body grows stronger & larger - to a Healthy Weight- pains & all, Ya know?
I can only imaging that as long as I stay the course, feeding My Body & my Mind, I will come out the other side better than could have been expected.

Anyways, that's my rambling for now as I traverse to the end of the path, 2BRecoverED; with LIMU, the Nutrients are so easy to get...even an ANorexic can Do It!

Blessings of Peace & Health, Enlightenment & Prosperity to You & Yours!

I'm Barbara A Thornton and

I am LIMU!

ID: Lady Limu ~8536438

BP, Unconscious Thought Theory & Eating Disorders

What an interesting & somewhat enlightening morning I've had here in "the box".

I started my morning with a shot o' LIMU upon wakening. I've been dealing with a bout of depression lately, i guess it started about the beginning of this month after my good news at the Dr. ie: cancer free & 117 pounds. Yay Me.
I didn't really have any "Thoughts" per se as I opened my email, just the 'feeling' of utter avoidance of the box, except I could check email. To my suprize, I saw a mail from a Great Friend who is also traveling the path 2BRecoverED. The subject line read: "Avoidance". How appropriate for a day such as this when I am locked inside my mind, after no contact for about a week. (That's all good btw as we both are busy Women).

This gets me to the interesting part.

Next place I went was MDLinx.
http://www.mdlinx.com/psychiatry/news-article.cfm/3275145/82/personality

Topic: Borderline personality and weight divergence in adulthood

Being AN since Elementary school, it really Does seem as if there are 2 people living inside My body. There is me and there is AN. Both fighting to control Me - the outside Body.

The somewhat enlightening part is due to the fact that I need to digest this info so it makes sense. 1/2 way enlightened if You will for now the knowlege is gained, just need application.

Divergence is the condition of being Unlike or Dissimilar; condition of being divided; an instance of digressing.
http://www.answers.com/topic/divergence

Allright, this starts to make sense now, but still Not enough info for hypothesis. Now i had more questions than at the start.

This line of questioning & thinking brought me to:
http://www.psychwiki.com/wiki/Unconscious_Thought_Theory

Topic: Unconscious Thought Theory

It's pretty heavy & deep with 6 principles.

Convergence Principle:

"The sixth and final principle is the Convergence versus Divergence principle.
Conscious thought is more convergent and unconscious thought is more divergent.
Conscious thought is convergent since it can integrate large amounts of information.
Unconscious thought is described as divergent due to the limited capacity described in the capacity principle.
Unlike conscious thought, unconscious thought does not have the ability to store and incorporate vast amounts of different information.
After a period of conscious engagement, it is necessary to undergo a break or phase of distraction in order to successfully engage in incubation which allows other critical cues to surface and unimportant cues to fade from memory. (Dijksterhuis and Olden, 2005).
It is also believed, based on studies from this principle, that the unconscious is primarily responsible for creativity."

So my understanding based on these new discoveries is that Yes, I Do have 2 "person-alities" inhabiting this one physical body. Good news - I'm Not crazy...just ANorexic.
This explains why I feel completely disconnected at times (especially when depression sets in) from My Body and even My own Mind.
This also explains why the restrictive cycle of AN is so hard for me to break. I was right in thinking that i had forged deep neuropathways in My subconsious to engage in This Behavior at any sign of stress, anxiety, discomfort, fear...

I had sucessfully diverged my 'person'-alities into 2 separate but completely functioning entities a couple of years ago to stop "Hearing" The Voice of AN inside my head.

I had NOT stopped the Voice, I just gave it the power & energy to Do what It wanted in the 1st place - To Separate from me completely so that it could control ALL of the "everyday, non 'thinking'" tasks like Breathing, Blinking, Moving, Eating, Resting and yes, even My very Thinking & Feelings

Now I have to figure out How I did that in the 1st place or at least How to Undo what i did. That is integration or Convergence where the 2 become one again - The Conscious Me & the subconscious me.
Although I do Not the AN! I Do want all my faculties to be Mine.

Well, that's deep enough for me.
It's time I left this box in search of something to Eat.

Blessings of Peace & Health, Enlightenment & Prosperity to You and "May the God of Hope fill You with all Joy as You Trust in Him." ~Romans 15:13

I'm Barbara A Thornton and I Am LIMU!

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http://thelimucompany.com/ladylimu
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My Sanctuary

Just finishing making a 2 course dinner out of a package of Broccoli Soup mix with 1st being soup of course, then added parmesan cheese, some onion & garlic powders & some Butter Buds to go over linguini pasta.
I feel real good about making the dinner tonight along with the little extra creative effort given to give My Husband a decent meal instead of just plain soup. I’m taking a break while waiting for the pasta to finish cooking as it’s been 15 minutes boiling and still no end in sight.
Then I’ll continue on my break while he eats because after being in front of the stove, food & smells for the last 45 minutes is sending my whole system parts running away to a safe sanctuary where food is no where to be found…in my office.

That reminds me, a good Friend in Australia once suggested that since I am comfortable in here, maybe i should bring My food in here so that the anxiety surrounding the “time” would not be so bad. I shrugged it off and probably dismissed that whole part of the conversation. (Sorry, You know who You are)

So as I sit, taking a break, guess i have time to explore this for a minute.

I do not think that bringing Solid food into my office/sanctuary is such a good idea right now. i am just now getting used to drinking My LEAN shakes in here and that took me almost 9 weeks into the Refeeding Syndrome.

This is My place to get my mind settled before going onto the next task that will take energy, concentration & perseverance to accomplish – my cool down place if You will. Here I get My breathing right and my mind in the proper set to get up & go at ‘em, whatever the “chore” might be.
This sanctuary, away from all food & filled with Peace & Love, is what seems to be keeping Me sane right now with the much needed break from My busy Body and allows me to catch up and fight the Voice to keep it at bay while i gain the strength to pass the next test, whatever it is that up ahead may lay.

So for now i’ll keep things as they are separated by space & time until the anxiety wears off a bit & i can tolerate more than LIMU LEAN invading my special sanctuary reserved for only Me.

Someday, in the Land called RecoverED, i will eat freely, be renewed & strengthened to Be Me.


May the God of Hope fill You with all Joy and Peace as You Trust in Him. ~Rom 15:13

Have a Great Day!
Barbara

My LIMU LEAN Challenge Results

Hello!
I'm Barbara A Thornton a.k.a. Lady Limu and I also completed the LIMU'Summer in the Sun' 90 day Challenge.
However, my Mission was to Gain a LEAN, Healthy weight as I finish my journey on the path 2BRecoverED from Anorexia (AN).

I started the path 3 years ago when all LIMU had was their ORIGINAL juice - 'The Blessing' I like to call it because i was 96 pounds when the Opportunity was presented to me.

Never could I have imagined another product on the market designed with Optimal Nutrients & Health in mind...until LIMU LEAN Meal ReplacementShakes, although i call them Meal Addition.

The 1st few weeks on the LEAN was grueling. Previously i had sustained my weight at 120lbs but a series of unfortunate life events facilitated the AN triggers & subsequent restriction of all food leaving me totally Dependent on the Original juice as that was all i was "allowing" MySelf to ingest.

I started the Challenge;
Weighing 102;
Wearing a size 12 to 14 GIRLS pants;
My breasts less than an A cup;
My hips, non existant except the protruding bones;
My limbs were little more than straight sticks.

In the beginning I could only tolerate 1 scoop as the AN & me had to gothrough the Refeeding Syndrome - where Solid Food is re-introduced intomy system parts & This is the Make it or Break it stage.
The side effects include confusion, comotose, even death. The bodytakes ALL the energy from every cell and uses it to Digest which leavesNOTHING left over for thinking or even moving.

After a couple of weeks I increased my daily dosage to the full 2 scoops once a day with a 1
scoop in between as well as increasing my "feeding times" and portions.
By week 5 I was up to 108 having gained 6 Solid, Muscle pounds (NOT fatwhich helped to lessen the anxiety about the weight gain - knowing it wasNot fat).

By July 5th, I was at 110 when I went on a 3 week vacation after another"triggering" death. 1.5 weeks later i was dealth another serioustriggering, unfortunate event that left me completely devastated.
I combated the AN the Only way i knew how - LIMU LEAN, Original juice &Blu Frog throughout every day.

When I arrived home I was happily amazed to find my weight was still at110! I had lost Nothing as my solids decreased & liquids LIMU increased.

Back home with the last week of the Challenge, i really set My mind & schedule to reach my goal - 117 to 120 in 90 days. My LEAN increased to twice daily while I continued to push through the AN wall forcing the solid food to go down.

It just so happened I was due for my 1 year cervical cancer check-upright as the Challenge was ending. There's good news x 2 to this story.

Not only am I cancer Free!
My weight is 117.
My pants are size 5 WOMENs;
My breasts are nearly a B cup;
My hips no longer allow me to step into a slip, it now must go over my head.
My limbs were commented on just yesturday by my 13 yr old daughter,"Mom!" she exclaimed as she reached over to grab my bicep & squeeze thethickness. "You have really big muscles! I want mine to look that way."

Melted my heart to hear My Daughter say that she wanted to be Like Me. NOW that I am healthy. I flexed them both and watched the amazed smile float across her face. She was Proud of Me.

I give the Lord the glory for this awesome transformation going on inMy Body & Mind and I give LIMU the praise for walking in His ways to bring real Healing & Health to Me & You!

Anorexia vs 90 day LEAN Challenge =
15 pounds gained.
6 pant sized gained.
1 bra cup gained.
Formation of hips.
Muscled & toned limbs.

There simply is NO easier path to take 2BRecoverED than with LIMU!

May the God of Hope fill You with all Joy & Peace as You trust in Him!

Barbara A Thornton
Lady Limu ID# 8536438931.628.4355
ladylimu@discoverlimu.com
1.931.796.9688 ~ 1.931.796.628.4355 cell
1.888.8MY.LIMU
http://thelimucompany.com/ladylimu

My LEAN 90 day Challenge

Good Day All!

The LIMU LEAN Summer Challenge has ended and soon the winner of the most weight lost will be announced. I can't wait to see everyone's testimony & progress these past 3 months! What an amazing Blessing, this LIMU Brand is - for it honestly Does what is promotes - Gives Any Body the Nutrients & fuel it needs to reach maximum potential. Best part of all? The system is so easy to use, one canNot help but get to a Healthy weight!

My LEAN challenge has ended as well, but that does Not mean i will stop using the lime of products to Maintain my health.

Here are my stats (so far):

Start Weight: 102 pounds
End Weight: 117 lbs

I was able to gain 15 whole pound in 90 days using the LEAN Weight Management System on My path, 2BRecoverED.

I went from a size 12-14 GIRLS to a a full size 5 WOMENS. That in itself is pretty amazing for Me.

The weight gain (I can 'feel') has been mostly all muscle - as well as the Much Needed Visceral Fat that protects my organs & body from injury. Other times when i have gained weight, it looks & Feels like fat. This is different with ALL toned limbs as the Muscles are Finally allowed to grow - instead of my body feeding off them for life support.

The Refeeding Syndrome was a real bear at the beginning. Everything i put in my mouth caused me to completely shut down - comotose (or sleeping as i call it) for upwards of 3 hours after each ingestion. That was really driving Me nuts as the AN had been keeping me physically & mentally busy to avoid the food intake. At this stage i was only able to handle 2 - one scoop shakes daily as the 2 scoops were very heavy on my stomach.
So when I went down flat i did feel like a failure which was a precarious position for me to hold. My hosehold chores as well as my online presense with my writings were stifled during this major change in the 1st part of the LEAN Challenge, causing More feelings of failure.

Of course as time went on, my sleeping times started to turn in the direction of just deep rest with slight sleeping times as My body was relearning how to eat like "normal". By this time i had increased LEAN dosage to the full recommended 2 scoops.

The last 30 days of the challenge was a Great challenge for Me as I went on an almost 3 week vacation with my Parents & Children. Tons of triggering events & explosive conversations coupled with the "new found" fact that My Parents do NOT eat like "normal" ie: breakfast was always a must for them (which is the hardest feeding time for me) but the rest of their day was filled with "grazing" on a piece of cheese and 5 crackers, lunch was skipped most days, with dinner being the only real meal served.

This way of feeding fit right in with my AN. She was overjoyed that it Was Normal to just NOT eat once again. It was at this stage that I was Blessed to add the Blu Frog Energy Drink to my diet on a Daily basis. - Thanks Mom & Dad!

For the last 2 weeks of the trip i was ingesting 2 LEAN shakes, 2 Blu Frogs and 2 shots of LIMU the ORIGINAL premium Fucoidan blend juice with some 'snacking'.
When i got home it was almost back to square one where my refeeding Times were once again honored by Me. I was simply Amazed to see the scale read 110 when I got home.
You see, before I left i weighed in at 110 & knowing that I was Not being responsible to Me about the solid food thing i was very leary about getting on the scale.

4 days ago I had my final exam with the Dr. to see if all the cervical cancer was gone so I could start back on yearly visits. What a Blessing that visit turned out to be! Not only was I cancer Free, but my weight was now up to 117 - without shoes & only a light sundress so I could get an acurate reading on the Dr.'s scale.

I am completely Happy with My progress! Even more extactic about the LIMU Brand transformation of My Body & Mind!

I am forming hips, my breasts are more full and even though i'm Not real happy about my new tummy because it is bigger than ever, I also realize that it is Healthy. I'm Not fat - just thicker around the middle than i am used to. My arms & legs feel & look bigger, meatier, no longer the straight sticks protruding out of My body.

Oh sure, some days are easier than others still. But ALL days are Easier than they have ever been for now My Body IS Healthy & so too my brain as My mind works through this last length of the path 2BRecoverED.

I realize now that i Must Fail at Being AN so that I can Be free to BE ME.


I pray the Lord Jesus will Bless You with His Mercy & Grace as You step out in Faith and trust Him for all Your needs!

Wayne & Barbara A Thornton

Separating at the seam

I heard the most interesting thing about 10 minutes ago as I was
rearranging the look & info on my blog.
Just as I was about to Do something, I heard,
"We should do this..." followed by some sort of unspoken agreement
& whatever the ... was -
that task was completed without much effort or fuss.

I realize that conversation in my head may seem to You
on the Outside of EDs
to be No big deal.
As This Was My initial reaction too.

The fact that I heard "WE Should" was, on one side a very
comforting sentance since I had not heard it often
in the past couple of years.

To my wonderment it was if an Old Friend had
Finally stopped for a visit & chat.
Just like days of old, We were together and sharing equally
of this same space and time with no worries, fights or shame
simply at ease to be ONE Together again.

To enjoy each other's Inclusion in Mind AND Task was a
serene illusion for the instant Joy i felt knowing that
I was Not alone Inside because my
AN did still reside where for now we are on
tentative speaking terms.

With all My hard work with My Health, weight Gain
and tools to learn, i have not had the time or strength
to spend With her.

So to Hear An speak to Me
Was a strange & unexpected incident.

Then I got to "thinking" as it was deep inside,
the thoughts hidden behind that veil so
only the sense of a strange
"feeling" that something was wrong.

I continued on in Our tasks however the clock
I could no longer remiss as the minutes did pass.
Knowing it had been 2 hours since I awoke and only 1 shot o' juice
with all the coffe did I ingest,
those words which were so sweet & welcoming at first
became a sick mantra to keep Me from passing the feeding test.

I rose from this seat & box, my work left "incomplete"
to the kitchen I Did Go,
pouring a Full glass of whole mik with No water
I poured my 2 scoops of LEAN in.

Only seconds in the Magic Bullet & my meal was ready,
insert straw and have a seat again to Thank the Lord for My
LIMU treat & His help to get it down.

Then to get back to where I started to blog,
to open My Mind, push aside this fog and veil
to see, & understand the Difference between
The Voice and Me.

you, Voice of AN, are very cunning as you've always been.
Thank you for coming out to say a few words once again.
Please feel free to say what you like, any time of day or night.

I have the Right to respond and so I will
for this veil between you & Me is separating at the seams.

It IS I, My dear AN, that did sew the curtain behind which i am now hid.
Yes you gave the pattern, materials & even showed Me how to do it.
In the end It is still My Creation to do with what I will and Mine Is
to have Complete control over this Body & Mind.

Time has come to pass for you, AN, to grasp the reality of the situation.
You may have your say with the Voice
but No longer can the 2 of you choose what I decide to Do
with My body & mind.
Say what you will but soon (& this you know too) I will be a resident
of The Land called RecoverED
where you - AN and the Voice - are the one behind the veil.

"WE Should" - NOTHING!

I AM going 2BRecoverED!

May the Lord Jesus Bless You with His Mercy & Grace for Peace & Health,
Enlightenment & Prosperity;
from Our home to Yours!

Wayne & Barbara A Thornton
Lady Limu

Every Battle Won

That last post, "I'm Tired" by Robert A. Hall was sent to Me by a couple of Good Friends, I stopped by my email quick before coming here to share my Praise Report of Great News and found this waiting.


I must Thank Them - AKC - for thinking of me and Mr. Robert A. Hall for putting into words so succinctly feelings & thoughts rambling about a bunch of minds lately - If they could only be heard.


I'm happy to say this path 2BRecoverED is almost complete!
I went for my 1yr Dr. appt after having the loop done for cervical cancer.
Clean bill of Health with no show for 1 year.

Best part was...I Am 117!

I wore a thin summer dress with a slip, made sure to take off my shoes,
braced myself as the Nurse moved the heavy metal passed 115
then on to rest at 117.


Does LIMU Work for Anorexia Nutrition?
YOU BET!


Is LIMU Easy Nutrition for the Anorexic?
YOU BET!


The LIMU Brand has Surpassed All my expectations & All My Nutrient Needs!

LIMU has passed This Human testing ground with such an obsecure
disease or illness, whichever You will,
to prove It Can take my Body/Mind from 96 lbs to a Healthy 117
and a few more to come in just 3 short years.


With virtually No help from myself these products have continued
to do My body good - just as long as I drink them like i should.

AN was very strong & many a fights have been witnessed,
althought those are kept behind My eyes, away from my mouth
so others would doubt there was anything wrong.


With LIMU My Mind is getting clearer & stronger everyday
so that when AN uses the Voice, I have the Strength,

Willingsness & Means to counter attack and Win.
With every battle fought And won by Me & my LIMU,
AN is running out of places to hide inside my mind.


Out in the light of day with that golden nectar
washing it away oz by oz and now a LEAN shake or two
and this last stretch of the path is starting to fly right on by.

My steps quickened with every strengthened organ,
I Do now plainly see that
Beautiful Land of RecoverED
where this road ends for Me & Can You too.


May the Lord Jesus Bless You with His Mercy & Grace for Peace & Health,
Enlightenment & Prosperity from Our Home to Yours!



Wayne & Barbara A Thornton
LIMU Consultant
Lady Limu - ID# 8536438

931-796-3688
463 Woodland Rd.
Hohenwald, TN 38462

LadyLimu@DiscoverLimu.com

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LEAN Progress

Today i am very Pleased & Proud of MySelf. Stepping on the scale with trepidation & bracing myself for the (assured) let down when the # (i knew) would Not have changed.

Of course these thoughts belonged to the Voice i soon found out when the number stopped just barely before 114.

Elation & Joy came alongside the relief i felt from inside my Mind and out to Me. A real feat accomplished this time...almost 3 weeks off my scheduled feeding times, plus losing 2 pounds last week.
So instead of gaining "just" 3.5 lbs, it was more like 5.5 - 2 to get Back to 110 & then 3.5 to get to now. What a Relief to see & feel the Difference LIMU makes when You take the time to fortify the Body & Mind.

It has Not been an easy task - having to go through the beginnings of the refeeding syndrome Again. I have spend the last 3 or so days going from feeding to rest & back again. My mind is foggy from going through "the change" or "switch-over" if You will from AN to Me. The ATP levels in my cells are working feriously to digest the food which leaves little for the physical excertions of the day.

However, I continue to LEAN & to juice a total of 4 times daily along with "forcing" Me to stop & Eat solid food too.
"The proof is in the pudding." My Husband says & I'm inclined to agree.

In cooking as in Life, new recepies are always tried, to feed on & grow. We never know what the new taste will be but we choose to have Faith in those who made it before us. Only after we have made the new dish & Tried it for the 1st time do we then have the option to Like or Dislike it; to see if it really Does work.

The LIMU Brand is much the same.
Only by choosing to Try it out for Yourself can You expect to see the results. It's Not magic or some inventive snake-oil, but Pure, Wholesome Food Nutrients from the sea & God's green grasses underneath.

The LEAN Challenge is almost over, my Faith is being rewarded, My Choice to LIMU is proving The Best Decision I ever made for My Family & Me.

We can't wait to have You on our team! Join the LIMU NATION Today & see what we mean!









Blessings of Peace & Health, Prosperity & Enlightenment to You!

Wayne & Barbara A Thornton

LIMU Consultant ID# 8536438
Lady Limu ID# 8536438

931-796-3688 - 931.628.4355 cell
1.888.8MY.LIMU toll free LIMU direct
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Convincing Voice

I had an interesting experience earlier one afternoon when

we went over to a Friend’s house for BBQ rib lunch.

Not wanting to go through the Refeeding syndrome

“bad” side-effects, I opted Not to eat.

Plus the smells of that meat was actually not appetizing to me.

At one time, ribs were my favorite, but that was over 20 years ago.

Now all i smell is the meat part and that sickens me.

I have to “be in the mood” and have my “timing” right in order to

even “think” about attempting to eat.

So I was explaining the comatose state one goes through with the syndrome,

which mine is getting easier, but given the type of food,

it would lay me flat out cold & i did not want

to have to go through that at a gathering.

I was able to sit in the same area where they were all eating –

which Was a plus because usually i have to run away from

seeing & smelling other people eat.

What happened next was completely unexpected

and utterly unforeseeable to Me.

One by one, everyone that had eaten started to make their way

to their cars to go home and…Take a Nap!

These were “healthy” people with good appetites & eating portions.

These people were not fat but they were more healthier than I.

These are the kind of people i would consider “normal eaters”

and They were being taken down flat by the food –

the Same reaction that I would have

and that I did Not want to have because

that would make me “different” and my AN more noticeable.

Come to find out, that was the Voice who

had Me convinced that Only an anorexic

gets “sick” off food.

May the Lord Bless You with His Mercy & Grace

for Peace & Health, Enlightenment & Prosperity

throughout all Your ways!

Barbara

New Life with LIMU

Friday, July 23, 2010
18:47

A Lean shake for dinner makes meal Kudo # 4 and the Blu Frog just prior to that gives me a little more…maybe 5 I’d say. Dinner & some vacuuming done along with giving the thirsty outside plants a drink, i have come here for My rest time & to think.

The thoughts are already there i know - it’s just that they refuse to show, through that black, velvety veil that I have come to know so well.
It is when I have a quite moment both In & Outside My Mind that i have access &
Are able to express the feelings or conclusions I have come to.

These thoughts, feelings & even memories come by so fast and their stay brief that at times I wish My mind was “well” like the “normal” people i pass on the street.

As I let go of me, My fingers & hands are free to Say, Think, Feel & just Be…
The Only Real me - who has been hiding, then imprisoned by The Voice of the AN
in Me.

In my writing zone My mind is free to roam as words form pages to articulate as i think, helping Me understand this Earthly Life I must Protect and Live; as I Learn & Develop new skills & tools to overcome Life’s anxiety, anger & strife.

“Normal Is as Normal Does” as long as everything is in moderation &
Mindful Self Health is done.

Sure enough, every time my writing is complete for the moment, I am relaxed & enjoyed the time just Being & Learning - Me.

I s’pose this 2BRecoverED Road is just about paved.
I started the path with LIMU 3 years ago not knowing where, when or how to tell when the path I would finish would end in better days.

I see now The Land of RecoverED just up ahead and it is Not scary nor am I filled with dread at the sights, smells & sounds that I catch faintly wafting up to Me.

With Me are My tools:

My Lord Jesus to Strengthen, Protect & Light the Path,
My Husband Wayne for his Loving Support of Me & my mind,
My Children who continue Inspire & Bless me and Trust My ways,
My LIMU Brand for ALL My Nutritional Needs.
Now with 3 great Product Lines from The Company to satisfy My Body & Mind,
I am finally able to face the Last battle with AN & it’s Voice
to WIN My rightful position as Barbara A Thornton – I am Me from within.

Someday i will be able to “come out” of My mouth to say some passing thought
Or memory of sometime long ago, but for now at least I am satisfied with the story I’ve been able to tell of My new Life, 2BRecoverED with LIMU.

So for now & until I can use My verbal speech to convey Myself,
i will continue to journal My walk…
For Me mostly is my repose;
I also know that knowledge & enlightenment Not shared shows how little one cares,
For the betterment of the Whole.

So I Thank the ones who have gone before Me into that beautiful Land of RecoverED
While sharing Their thoughts & words with me – The Public – to show there really is No trick to getting there!

Only thing to do is make a choice to start a path 2BRecoverED
and open to starting things anew.

Then be Courteous & Loving to Self.

Decide to Nourish the Body and Mind.

Find time to rest & relax.

It’s as simple as that.

The stress & strife of Life is in the Mind - a Learned behavior that needs to be corrected and left behind.
With LIMU Brand product lines, the Body CAN & WILL Repair, Regenerate & Renew
Itself with whole food nutrients found in the Sea.

From here on out with LIMU that path is now firmly paved & weeded and thoroughly seeded just waiting for YOUR flower to bloom.

Drop me a line & I’ll help you get started on Your journey 2BRecoverED with LIMU!
“Lady Limu” is me & easy to find and in case You were wondering my
ID is 8536438.

May the Lord Jesus Bless You with Peace & Health, Enlightenment & Prosperity.

Barbara

Easiest Path To Take

Things are starting to settle back down to normal since returning from vacation. I'm caught up with emails and the home chores are getting back into the routine. I am once again up to to 2 LEAN shakes a day - both are 2 scoops - and a couple of snacks during sunlight and a big dinner followed by dessert & "binge eating" before bed. The binges consist of solid foods intake for about 30 minutes to 1.5 hours after 9pm - depending on how well it goes down physically and if i can stay mentally disassociated from the act of eating.

Today i woke to have a shot o' juice which i followed with the LEAN all before my coffee, that is a 1st for me. However i just "felt" that I needed to eat something and the shakes are the Easiest way to go for me in the morning.
I am very proud of myself for choosing the LEAN option over my "normal" habit of skipping breffie to drink coffee in My office as i type away.

Right now my mind is a bit fuzzy & My body is 'heavy' as those miniscule nutrients are making their way through My bloodstream; repairing the damage of yesturday's physically strenuous & active back to the grind house chores, removing dead, dying & unhealthy cells from my system parts and rebuilding My body & mind to more acurately reflect My 38 years.

So i will cut this short to give Me what i need - a rest to let the LIMU & Refeeding Syndrome work at full speed. Praise the Lord Jesus that each day I get stronger as i continue to Live My Life His way - taking nourishment into my Body, Mind & Soul.

How long does the path, 2BRecoverED, take to journey?

It just depends on the Me inside of the you & how fast that me is willing to run towards the end, of which is not in sight.
Through perserverance, faith & sheer might, forgiving the mistakes made by the body & mind, by seeking & attaining the knowlege & tools needed to fight through the miry path and Choosing to change the old, destructive & habitual ways to a new life with LIMU; I'm finding this path is closer than ever to being completely paved all the way to the Beautiful Land of RecoverED.

Just 1 week left in the LIMU LEAN Summer Challenge with one final push to the goal - of Attaining a Healthy Body weight to strengthen & sustain my mind and all Body System Parts at the smae time. With Healthy Fat & Muscle to make the number just right the Refeeding Syndrome will be overcome and at last I will have Won this final fight between my AN and Me.

With the complete LIMU Brand of whole food wellness products i no longer have the worries or anxiety about getting Nutrients into MySelf. All those years of struggle & strife are wisked away because I now Have THE tools to make a Life for My Self and Family.

With The Blessing of LIMU, i can finally gain my Health And grow My bank account the Simple, Quick and Easy way - just by drinking and sharing the products & blessing with 2 a day, Everyday.

Isn't it about time You LIVED Your Life?

2BRecoverED with LIMU is the easiest path to take.

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It starts working immediately.
It is safe & non invasive.
It is Affordable Health Assurance now.
It is cost effective in the long run.
It tastes Great.
It has all the Nutrients the body/mind Needs to Survive & Thrive.

It takes a Decision & Action from You to start.
Won't You choose to Be Different & Better than You can imagine right now?

I did 3 years ago without even a 1st taste and The Blessing that followed cannot be fully described only Felt as the dead & dying Self is flushed away to bring forth a New & Exciting way of Living my Life instead of it controlling Me.

May the Lord Jesus Bless You with Peace & Health, Enlightenment & Prosperity alway!

Barbara
Lady Limu
ID# 8536438

Fit The Mold

Wow. What a whirlwind vacation! I am happy to be home; my Husband & puppies were pleasantly surprised to see us last night – early 2 days and after 2 weeks of absence.

Due to technical difficulties (which I am working on) I cannot upload the sim card from my camera to show a taste of the Car Craft Nationals car show over the weekend.

Even though I did NOT stick to My pre-planned Refeeding schedule...You know, the eating every 2.5 hours with rest/naps… I continued on the LIMU, LEAN & copious amounts of Blu Frog.
I was dreading coming home & stepping on My scale for absolute fear that I had dropped pounds. i did not want to go through the extreme disappointment i would feel when faced with the Truth (in #’s) with My failure to keep on schedule.
To my complete & excited surprise I am a Solid 110, teetering 111 & settled on solid 110. I could hardly believe that although my eating was “skewed” - as compared to “Normal” “Anorexia Recovery” Standards, i.e. Refeeding Scheduled Times - my dedication to continue in the only Healthy regime option I have, the LIMU Brand of premium Fucoidan line of products, has once again produced results.

My husband had questioned me all along on trip about My eating habits. Honestly, I replied that I was at 1 meal daily (by the beginning of the car show on Friday) WITH all 3 of the LIMU products and maybe some snack at some point in the day.
At that point he was concerned as one of my reasons for the vacation with my parents & children were to have the time to “just eat”. Here I was doing the exact opposite of what i set out to do --- Physically.

I may have stumbled on the solid food part (yet again – Ugh!) but this time with my (blood) Family has really been a Blessing as far as my knowledge, understanding & Enlightenment is concerned.

A Healthy Mind IS AS Important as a Healthy Body, for without the Mind, the Body cannot have optimal performance.

For the 1st time ever I was able to actually see My Parents & my upbringing (as far as Food goes). I was taken aback to see that Mom was Not always in the kitchen cooking for us. I have no idea where I ever got That notion for as the trip progressed, I started to “feel” the memories of the fact that Mum really did Not eat all that much. She is Very Healthy – don’t get me wrong! However, her snacks consisted of 4 crackers & a piece of cheese. Dinner was a “decent” portion although not “goodly” and she ate it when She was ready even though the dinner was on the table at 6pm since forever.
i looked to My Dad and to my utter amazement Not even He ate a whole bunch. He is also Very Healthy which perplexed Me as I had the notion that he was a Big eater because he’s 10 feet tall & bullet proof. Can’t get That way without food right? His snacks were much the same with maybe a couple more than Mum. His ‘meal’ portion was appropriate for a man his age & weight although he too only ate 1 “real full meal” a day.

I looked closer at My choices for the meal times & saw that they were appropriate & even goodly at the times when I was most relaxed. A few times it was like choking down rocks like the vegetable soup cup incident. The others were just a real normal meal plate.

Last night i was taking with Wayne about the trip and he said the most profound thing:

“You are Completely Normal. I thought you just took after Your Mom, but now I see that Your Dad is the same way about the whole eating thing. You are Normal for YOUR gene pool. Your body is Not made to take in as much as the “average” person. Your body is Designed to take in food in smaller portions and at different times a day than the said ‘normal’.” He said this as I was enjoying a HungryMan ™ t.v. dinner with 1050 calories at midnight.

So when I stepped on the dreaded scale this morning to see My great progress – of NOT falling backward – this enlightenment was again recalled in my brain. The anxiety was gone.

Tonight, i feel as if a Huge weight has been lifted. I have been studying the human body, genetics, cells and the whole gambit for 3 years and with My memories being kept away from me, I could not see the obvious: Genetically predisposed for Anorexia.

There is Nothing wrong with My Family’s eating habits or schedule because they are all healthy even though we don’t fit the mold per se. I was the only one to take it to the extreme - over the edge if You will.

With this “new” knowledge & remembrances of days long ago & teachings of my youth, I am filled with a Peace that i could not have imagined & Strength to finish The Road, 2BRecoverED, once & for all; to round the next & last bend for the Land of RecoverED is just ahead.

Now I’m back at home and my nose to the grinding stone as I piece the puzzle together with these tools & knowledge I’ve gained along the way. A Good Friend told me that there would be 1 last big battle between AN & Me before this path was finished; I’m inclined to believe that spending time with my roots has proved to be a Big battle that we sailed through with flying colors.

In the next 4 weeks is My big push to reach my goal – 117 – 120 pounds.

I realize that may sound like such a small “number” but for My Body & genes it really Does fit ME.
I’ve been trying all my life to fit a mold imposed on Me from society, friends, parents & AN Self.
I’m starting to see the light at the end of this long dark tunnel as I learn that the only mold to Be is Me.

Blessings of Peace & Health, Enlightenment & Prosperity to You!

Barbara A Thornton
Lady Limu