On the Up Side

Good Morning Friends & Neighbors!

Thank You all for Your Prayers!

I broke down and weighed today. To my delight, i am at 118! I am no longer going backwards by losing weight, but forward to my healthy goal of 120.

I had a good day yeaturday. I drank my juice, was productive physically, spent time thinking about the words to describe this feeling of empowerment and comfort that this disease brings with it. I spent the late afternoon and early evening "munching" on cookies, grapes, a banana, even a couple pieces of chocolate; and eating a big steak, mac-n-cheese, brussels sprouts & geen beans for dinner.

I must be honest here, so i can confront Myself so i get these thoughts and subsequent feelings out in the open, conscious mind. Only then can i do battle with an oppponent that has been very crafty, manipulative and rooted in the subconsious mind.
The only way to win a battle is to Know that you Are In the battle.

Now i can stand face to face with this enemy.
I see it coming at me.
I know what it is up to.
I understand it's methods of manipulation.
I feel it creeping up on me - every day.

This time around, i possess the skills to fight back.
I stand my ground as controller of this bodily vessel.
I counteract the attacks with positive action - thoughts or more often than not, just eating.
I use my understanding to Not allow this to happen.
Everyday, i drink The Juice and eat. The feeling goes away.

So, my honesty?
There are days that i consiously do Not drink my juice.

There was a time, from the beginning up to recently, that i used the Limu as a crutch. Eating was impossible at first, so i would drink large amounts of juice because i knew that it over compensated for the lack of food intake. I was still feeding my body, even though my body and mind did not want food.
Now, during my worst days, i am recognizing that i purposely forgo my juice specifically because i know it is good for me. I have seen this juice take my body from an emaciated state to the great health i enjoy today in just 1.5 years. So i understand the need my body has for this Fucoidan, and subsequently, anorexia attacks this most pure form of nutrition also.

My husband just brought me a banana. It sat next to me for a while as i went through the process of debating with myself about wether or not to open it. Finally, i just reached over, grabbed it and would You know it, there was a Kudo for me! how sweet. O.K. i finished my banana. Not bad...before noon even! lol

I hope to one day be able to explain this 'crazy' to myself. I need to be able to wrap my head around what is going on with me mentally if i ever hope to have a chance at a 'normal' life where food is just another part of the day and not a big deal. If i can be able to identify, label & outline the effects of this anorexia in a clear laymans terms - which i can understand - it is my speculation that at that time, my struggle will be considerably lessened and eventually to a point where this disease does Not affect my daily life.

I invite You to come along on my journey. I am always open to encouragement, advice and even constructive criticism.

I Pray You have Life More Abundant in 2009!
Lady Limu

www.blufrogenergy.com/ladylimu

Forging New Neuro Pathways

Good Morning Friends & Neighbors!

I have been doing pretty well. I have not weighed and was going to hold off for another day or so. Yeah, i know - shame on me.
I have 8 large* Kudo stickers - *denotes a full plate meal, and 3 tiny* Kudos - for a snack. This was all since Sunday. So i am encouraged by seeing the progress that Yes, i am eating.

I wanted to try to explain this as much for You, the reader, as well as for my own understanding. I am still battle-ing this disease on my own. I have no one who is "like me" around to be able to connect with and share.

I want to describe this (anorexia) as a sort of Spirit. I have no other words to describe the feeling that comes over me.
I am relaxed and not even thinking about food or anorexia. I look at the clock and watch the hands slip closer to lunch and then past. All the while keeping busy around the house. When i look at the clock, i sense agitation, then my body starts to feel hunger, then longing followed by a familiar 'feeling' of being in control, my hunger stops, instantly my brain finds some other activity or chore to get involved with.
Soon, an hour has passed and the whole cycle begins, but this time, that familiar spirit, which i subconsiously at first let in, comes over me faster and more powerful, and my reaction is to consiously give up my body to this welcomed old friend.
My subconsious mind already has these paths laid down pretty deep. So i am easily persuaded to consiously embrace this activity because it has a root in my mind and Actually affects and manipulated my body functions - physical and mental in the form of chemicals produced in the brain - to come into concordance with this destructive "spirit" & disease of the mind and body and soul.

pretty heavy huh? i know.

At least now i can see and identify this destruction faster, therefor enabling me to be ProActive in my approach to my Own health and wellbeing.

1st step is to up the juice.

2nd step is to fill my Kudo chart and not worry about the guilt that will induce; for in time that wrong reaction will be eliminated by doing the right action - eating a lot every day. A lot meaning 3 times a meal and at least 3-4 snacks. That really is Not a lot to ask of myself is it?

3rd step is be back in my wagon forging new neuro pathways to a better relationship with food, and my body.

I like to think of it like the wagon trains of the old west blazing trails through uncharted territory to get to the California Coast where their lives would be more abundant.
This is my trail to blaze. With Faith, Encouragement, Prayers and Fucoidan, i will chart a new map in the unknown territory of my mind that will bring me to place of life more abundant.

Join me on this journey to a better, healthier body and mind not just for myself -
but For You and Your Family!

Take Your 1st step today.
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In so by doing You too will Acheive a Healthier Body.
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Make 2009 the Year Your Dreams Come True!

Blessings of Life More Abundant!
Lady Limu

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Getting back to my track and race for recovery

Good Morning Friends & Neighbors!

Whew! What a weekend! Great Show Blu Frog Motorsports and drivers, Foyt and Cope!

Time to get back on MY track, as it looks like i am in the process of falling off the wagon again.

I just weighed and am at 117, teetering on 116. Definately NOT 115, but still too close for my comfort.
I reinstated my Kudo's going week by week starting on Sunday. Right now i have 3. I ate 3 meal times yesturday and then some roasted marshmallows. Should i get a Kudo for them too? i at 4.

Anyways, i gotta cut this short. I thought i had time to delve into my brain about this anorexic spirit that has overcome me again - a familiar spirit, so it is welcomed and actually comforting in a sick sort of way. However, i just remembered i have an appointment in 30 minutes.

I'll try to get back today, but will tomorrow morning if i can't today.

Blessings of Peace & Health & Life More Abundant to You in 2009!
Lady Limu

Don't Let Your Environment Control You

Good Evening Friends & Neighbors!



I hope y'all are enjoying The Race tonight.



I want to introduce a new aspect of my blog called:

Wayne's topic for the Day:

(with our commentary and/or explanation)



1-12-09

"Don't let Your environment Control You"

"Learn to eliminate chaos and fear, which induces a stagnant life and opens the doors to Your environment controlling Your Future - Your Destiny."



Don't be afraid to ask for help and learn new ways and techniques to eliminate the chaos and fear within Yourself

From the beginning, God had to make order of the chaos to acheive His goal of creating Man and Woman in His image.

God has no fear - therefor ALL things are possible with Him.

So too we must learn to make order of our lives and trust in our own abilities and fear Not; for when everything about us is in order and we are confident in our own abilities as a human being, in charge of our environment around us, Only Then can we Truely begin living out our lives to the Full Potential.





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Blessings of Peace & Health, Enlightenment & Prosperity to You in 2009!

Lady Limu