What a whirlwind this past few weeks traveling to and fro across parts of this great land. I got to catch up with some old friends and meet new ones, our family grew thanks to the Bride & Groom. Now I am back home and after a few days of complete rest I find myself beginning to appear again.
My state is comfortable and the anxiety of the outside is beginning to ebb away. I have kept my weight steady & strong not dipping down below my set 115 so that's a good thing. My body is is on the right track, no need to to ever go back to the emaciated way I choose to stay for all those decades.
Now that I am in a stable place with myself, it is time to reflect and then grow from within. This is not an easy task given the miriad personalities that seem to reside within, each with an agenda for this body of mine to take. Integrate is the word and deed but for all to actually agree is what holds me back from being completely Me.
I am coming to realize & understand that My memories have not dissapeared, neither are they impaired by space & time; they are in the different facets of my mind. Being Anorexic has some degree of Dissociation Personality Disorder in order to continue on in that "other" self. Add this illness on top of physical, verbal & sexual abuse along with neglect since early age and no wonder why I cannot remember. I simply did Not experience those episodes. Someone else inside my Body (or System Parts) did.
This is why tracking down the Voice of AN inside the labyrinth of this mind has been so hard. For years I have somehow made it clear that each one of me is to be Seperate from the Self. Never sharing this body at the same time means also never sharing the mind. The AN has been systematically injecting itself into every person'ality' I have. So that 30 yrs later every one is deluted with the toxic Voice of this deadly reason.
Each time one of my persons gets a leg up on the fight 2BRecoverED, the voice starts attacking another & 'forcing' that personality to overcome the 1st for the position to "run" this body & mind. To fight effectively, I must be introduced to and know each one that resides within my mind.
And I though the Physical Healing of Anorexia was going to be a grueling one. It was, but I survived it and I will Survive this too. Maybe now that all my different system parts are starting to trust Me for nourishment called "food", wether it be LIMU or solids, soon each one will find the strength to open up their world to Mine.
Now that my sandwich has had a bit of time to digest as i came out and wrote some, it it time for a short rest to continue to let my body & mind heal.
Blessings of Peace & Joy with His Mercy & Grace to You alway!
I'm Barb Thornton and IAmLimu
Lady Limu Member ID# 8536438
931.796.3688
888.8My.LIMU
http://thelimucompany.com/ladylimu
I dared 2BRecoverED with LIMU ORIGINAL juice 8 years ago weighing 96 lbs at age 35 - thanks to the Eating Disorder, Anorexia. It was time to Make A Choice: Decide to Change or Die from malnutrition. With the addition of LIMU LEAN Weight Management System and LIMU BLU FROG Energy Drinks, Mine IS A Life Recovered with LIMU's alternative health supplements. Join me today and Recover Your Life with LIMU! I'm always only a phone call away.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
The End of The Road
The steps along this path, 2BRecoverED, are mine to take;
Either to move forward or stay knocked down for the AN’s sake.
Once i decided to choose a different way of Life
(Instead of listening to & following The Voice)
I really had no idea that choice of Mine -
Would cause so much strife.
In My body and in my head are feelings & thoughts
Of sheer dread and the anxiety rises into a crescendo.
As both know I will not give in and stop
Drinking My LIMU Brand, for it has all the nutrients I need;
To overcome all that I’ve done wrong since I
Let the AN in all those many years ago.
This path is a treacherous, miry and confusing one -
Just like all the others, I s’pose, that lead to the Land of RecoverED.
Full of deep pits of despair, fits of rage and, quite frankly,
Feelings of not even being here in the same realm
With body & mind complete.
What’s the difference, You might ask, of which path to take
– If they all lead to the same place?
Ah yes, but if You only knew
How much easier this one is with LIMU inside;
To fortify & strengthen the body & mind -
for the fight to bring The Self out.
A daunting & exhaustive task this Refeeding Syndrome with
All its quirky traits, forcing Me to wonder if I should continue.
But each day I start anew with a sip of that golden nectar
As i visualize my AN drowning in that sea of nutrients
And Me without a care.
My steps quickened along with my strength restored,
I soon Shall say good-bye to this old friend of Mine;
Of which I’ve trodden & have become bored.
It’s time to get on with My new living arrangements as I
Take up the Only residence next to my Lord
That Belongs in this vessel that has been given to Me.
May the God of Hope fill You with all Joy & Peace as You Trust in Him. *Romans 15:13
I'm Barbara A Thornton and IAmLIMU ~ Lady Limu
Either to move forward or stay knocked down for the AN’s sake.
Once i decided to choose a different way of Life
(Instead of listening to & following The Voice)
I really had no idea that choice of Mine -
Would cause so much strife.
In My body and in my head are feelings & thoughts
Of sheer dread and the anxiety rises into a crescendo.
As both know I will not give in and stop
Drinking My LIMU Brand, for it has all the nutrients I need;
To overcome all that I’ve done wrong since I
Let the AN in all those many years ago.
This path is a treacherous, miry and confusing one -
Just like all the others, I s’pose, that lead to the Land of RecoverED.
Full of deep pits of despair, fits of rage and, quite frankly,
Feelings of not even being here in the same realm
With body & mind complete.
What’s the difference, You might ask, of which path to take
– If they all lead to the same place?
Ah yes, but if You only knew
How much easier this one is with LIMU inside;
To fortify & strengthen the body & mind -
for the fight to bring The Self out.
A daunting & exhaustive task this Refeeding Syndrome with
All its quirky traits, forcing Me to wonder if I should continue.
But each day I start anew with a sip of that golden nectar
As i visualize my AN drowning in that sea of nutrients
And Me without a care.
My steps quickened along with my strength restored,
I soon Shall say good-bye to this old friend of Mine;
Of which I’ve trodden & have become bored.
It’s time to get on with My new living arrangements as I
Take up the Only residence next to my Lord
That Belongs in this vessel that has been given to Me.
May the God of Hope fill You with all Joy & Peace as You Trust in Him. *Romans 15:13
I'm Barbara A Thornton and IAmLIMU ~ Lady Limu
888.8My.LIMU ~ #8536438
931.796.3688
(Sunday, August 22, 2010 17:58)
931.796.3688
(Sunday, August 22, 2010 17:58)
How Much is Your Child Worth?
According to a report just released by the U.S. Department of Agriculture, it now costs as much as $393,230 to raise a child to age eighteen. That's the standard amount for those in the upper income levels. For middle income earners, the figure drops to $204,060. But that doesn't include college and that is just for One child!
Using the middle income guideline, this equals $11,336.67 per year per child or about 1k a month. Some of these Families will get help with food or housing, and the rest are left to pay all expenses out of pocket. Due to the current economy, a lot of Families are left jobless with no health insurance and the food choices are lessened due to the high cost of Nutritious food choices vs the quick, ready made t.v. dinners & boxed meals.
With all of these factors, is it any wonder that the Next Generation are NOT expected to outlive their parents? How are today's Parents able to provide Financial & Health stability for their Families in these uncertain times? It seems the cards are stacked against us - especially if we lack the education needed to land that high paying j-o-b?
The answer Is LIMU.
We can agree that without a Healthy Body our prospects for making Dreams into Reality are few & far between.
Health IS the foundation for all wealth. If You get sick & cannot go to work, You simply do Not get paid for that day or weeks You are out.
Simply by choosing to Be Healthy with the LIMU Brand 1/2 the battle is already won. With continued daily use of these premier Fucoidan blend products You can say good-bye to the common cols & flu thanks to Your Immune System functioning Properly which keep You on the j-o-b to provide for Your Family.
Not happy with Your current carreer choice? That's great! LIMU provides Reward Rebates of cash when You share Your story of LIMU with others who are looking for Health Assurance and Financial Peace.
Let's carry this 1 step further.
Imagine giving Your Childen the Best Nutrients available on the market today and every day.
Could You stand to go a whole year and longer without their runny noses & coughing?
Could You stand having every night's sleep to be a full one without taking care of Your sick child?
Could You stand Not seeing those red puffy eyes that go along with the fevers?
Would you be willing to give Your child the Healthiest start for Their Future Life?
Would You be willing to invest In Your Child?
Would You be willing to change Your mind and Change Their Life?
Can You imagine Your Child Happy, Healthy and Safe from the germy kids they encounter at school?
Can You imagine irradicating childhood sickness from Your Family Tree?
Can You imagine all the money You Save simply by Choosing Health?
The Future of Our Communities & Country depends on how You invest Your Time & Money in Your Children. Just like Our Parents invested in the Future by ensuring Our Health & Prosperity by the Choices they made with the options they had, of course back then Our food supply still had the Nutrients in it.
Today is no different. Every Body Need Nutrients to survive and Thrive ~ We Can agree on that.
The LIMU Brand of products provide the Nutrient building blocks for a Prosperous Future.
Are You willing to give up that Starbucks coffee or McDonald's lunch every day to provide unsurpassed health to Your Family?
Are You willing to Be The Parent that Your Child needs?
At less than $160 a month (on Autoship) You CAN afford real Health Assurance. You Can have extra Positive cashflow by helping other Families in Your Community receive 'The Blessing' of LIMU.
It's not our pocketbooks but our perspective that makes us truly rich.
The real measure of our wealth is how much we should be worth if we lost our money. ~J. H. Jowett
How much is Your Child worth?
Blessings of Peace & Health with Mercy & Grace to You!
I'm Barbara A Thornton and I Am LIMU ~ Lady Limu #8536438
931.796.3688 ~ 888.8MY.LIMU (toll free)
http://thelimucompany.com/ladylimu
Using the middle income guideline, this equals $11,336.67 per year per child or about 1k a month. Some of these Families will get help with food or housing, and the rest are left to pay all expenses out of pocket. Due to the current economy, a lot of Families are left jobless with no health insurance and the food choices are lessened due to the high cost of Nutritious food choices vs the quick, ready made t.v. dinners & boxed meals.
With all of these factors, is it any wonder that the Next Generation are NOT expected to outlive their parents? How are today's Parents able to provide Financial & Health stability for their Families in these uncertain times? It seems the cards are stacked against us - especially if we lack the education needed to land that high paying j-o-b?
The answer Is LIMU.
We can agree that without a Healthy Body our prospects for making Dreams into Reality are few & far between.
Health IS the foundation for all wealth. If You get sick & cannot go to work, You simply do Not get paid for that day or weeks You are out.
Simply by choosing to Be Healthy with the LIMU Brand 1/2 the battle is already won. With continued daily use of these premier Fucoidan blend products You can say good-bye to the common cols & flu thanks to Your Immune System functioning Properly which keep You on the j-o-b to provide for Your Family.
Not happy with Your current carreer choice? That's great! LIMU provides Reward Rebates of cash when You share Your story of LIMU with others who are looking for Health Assurance and Financial Peace.
Let's carry this 1 step further.
Imagine giving Your Childen the Best Nutrients available on the market today and every day.
Could You stand to go a whole year and longer without their runny noses & coughing?
Could You stand having every night's sleep to be a full one without taking care of Your sick child?
Could You stand Not seeing those red puffy eyes that go along with the fevers?
Would you be willing to give Your child the Healthiest start for Their Future Life?
Would You be willing to invest In Your Child?
Would You be willing to change Your mind and Change Their Life?
Can You imagine Your Child Happy, Healthy and Safe from the germy kids they encounter at school?
Can You imagine irradicating childhood sickness from Your Family Tree?
Can You imagine all the money You Save simply by Choosing Health?
The Future of Our Communities & Country depends on how You invest Your Time & Money in Your Children. Just like Our Parents invested in the Future by ensuring Our Health & Prosperity by the Choices they made with the options they had, of course back then Our food supply still had the Nutrients in it.
Today is no different. Every Body Need Nutrients to survive and Thrive ~ We Can agree on that.
The LIMU Brand of products provide the Nutrient building blocks for a Prosperous Future.
Are You willing to give up that Starbucks coffee or McDonald's lunch every day to provide unsurpassed health to Your Family?
Are You willing to Be The Parent that Your Child needs?
At less than $160 a month (on Autoship) You CAN afford real Health Assurance. You Can have extra Positive cashflow by helping other Families in Your Community receive 'The Blessing' of LIMU.
It's not our pocketbooks but our perspective that makes us truly rich.
The real measure of our wealth is how much we should be worth if we lost our money. ~J. H. Jowett
How much is Your Child worth?
Blessings of Peace & Health with Mercy & Grace to You!
I'm Barbara A Thornton and I Am LIMU ~ Lady Limu #8536438
931.796.3688 ~ 888.8MY.LIMU (toll free)
http://thelimucompany.com/ladylimu
Friday, October 1, 2010
The Power of Attitude
The nest of young eagles hung on every word as the Master Eagle described his exploits. This was an important day for the eaglets. They were preparing for their first solo flight from the nest. It was the confidence builder many of them needed to fulfill their destiny.
"How far can I travel?" asked one of the eaglets.
"How far can you see?" responded the Master Eagle.
"How high can I fly?" quizzed the young eaglet.
"How far can you stretch your wings?" asked the old eagle.
"How long can I fly?" the eaglet persisted.
"How far is the horizon?" the mentor rebounded.
"How much should I dream?" asked the eaglet.
"How much can you dream?" smiled the older, wiser eagle.
"How much can I achieve?" the young eagle continued.
"How much can you believe?" the old eagle challenged.
Frustrated by the banter, the young eagle demanded, "Why don't you answer my questions?"
"I did."
"Yes. But you answered them with questions."
"I answered them the best I could."
"But you're the Master Eagle. You're supposed to know everything. If you can't answer these questions, who can?"
"You." The old wise eagle reassured.
"Me? How?" the young eagle was confused.
"No one can tell you how high to fly or how much to dream. It's different for each eagle. Only God and you know how far you'll go. No one on this earth knows your potential or what's in your heart. You alone will answer that. The only thing that limits you is the edge of your imagination."
The young eagle puzzled by this asked, "What should I do?"
"Look to the horizon, spread your wings, and fly."
"How far can I travel?" asked one of the eaglets.
"How far can you see?" responded the Master Eagle.
"How high can I fly?" quizzed the young eaglet.
"How far can you stretch your wings?" asked the old eagle.
"How long can I fly?" the eaglet persisted.
"How far is the horizon?" the mentor rebounded.
"How much should I dream?" asked the eaglet.
"How much can you dream?" smiled the older, wiser eagle.
"How much can I achieve?" the young eagle continued.
"How much can you believe?" the old eagle challenged.
Frustrated by the banter, the young eagle demanded, "Why don't you answer my questions?"
"I did."
"Yes. But you answered them with questions."
"I answered them the best I could."
"But you're the Master Eagle. You're supposed to know everything. If you can't answer these questions, who can?"
"You." The old wise eagle reassured.
"Me? How?" the young eagle was confused.
"No one can tell you how high to fly or how much to dream. It's different for each eagle. Only God and you know how far you'll go. No one on this earth knows your potential or what's in your heart. You alone will answer that. The only thing that limits you is the edge of your imagination."
The young eagle puzzled by this asked, "What should I do?"
"Look to the horizon, spread your wings, and fly."
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